09.30.09

Dear God,

Yes it’s me again – Talking. A couple of days back, you told me that I’ve been talking to you much but should start learning how to listen. I’ve been thinking --- You know what Lord – I hear you, I think. You’ve been talking to me ever since. And I’ve been hearing you God. My problem, which I know you know already, is accepting what you have been telling me. Lord, I was told that you created me. Such case, You know how stubborn I could be. Lord God, what you have been asking of me might take a while if not forever. I am sorry but I won’t let go of him, at least not yet. I know he is yours and have no right to demand. I know that the love I could give him could never compare to what you could give. I know that if you would give him a choice he would choose You. But I choose to hold on – and that’s what free will is all about right? ---It hurts Lord God to hold on but I think letting go of him is much harder. Just like when we had his 40 days. I am scared of hurting. I’m not like him. I’m sorry.

--- his sibling. – (I know, - ‘Your son’)